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Tuesday 6 March 2012
It's almost 11.30 and I just attempted to swallow twenty pills. It didn't work of course and I vomited after the fifth or six one. Only one pill stayed in. I'm such a failure. I can't even kill myself successfully. I'm fucking useless. I feel like crying and I'm coughing like mad now. Fuck this shit. I don't wanna try overdosing again today. my throat hurts like hell
? spooked at 07:28
Sunday 4 March 2012
Tomorrow's the day. It could be the day to save my life or it could be the one to end it. Out now.Hanging out with a few friends to see if they could be a reason to live. They are important to me and I actually smile when I'm with them but I'm not like a real friend. I wonder if I should get some form of help. Like maybe from Mr Abdat or something. I don't know. Is this doubt? Whatever. I'll see how I feel tomorrow.
? spooked at 22:58
Friday 2 March 2012
I think I'm falling sick. I feel even worse today. I cried a bit during English and History. I wasn't sobbing but I was tearing up. I guess Mr Abdat must've realised cause he asked to see me after History nd asked me if I was okay. I just told him I felt nauseous. He said my eyes look very sad. Is it that obvious? Ugh, I hate going to school but I hate being stuck at home even more. I just feel like crying now. My eyes are actually burning.
? spooked at 04:09
Tuesday 28 February 2012
Thinking of suicide again. Don't know what to do. I just want to scream and cry. I can't take this. I have no real friends, my family hates me. I have nothing to live for. If my family knew about "it", they'll hate me even more. They'd probably kick me out. I'm sinful in their eyes. I'm unnatural.
? spooked at 08:26
Sunday 29 January 2012
School started. So far, it's been okay. Not good but not bad. I dislocated my knee about a week ago. Was in a cast but removed it yesterday. I have to use a knee brace now which sucks but it's better than that damn cast.
? spooked at 03:03
Tuesday 6 December 2011
Haven't written in such a long time. Rotting at home. REALLY wanna go watch The Muppets but parents say cash is low now. Ugh. It's already December. I REALLY don't wanna go back to Hell. The only upside is the fact that we'll be doing Poetry for Literature. And I don't even know if I'll be getting the same teacher. I only like my English and Literature teacher. I'm gonna have a Christmas movie marathon to try to get me in a Christmassey mood. It's gonna be hard to celebrate Christmas cause my Grandma's death anniversary is like two days before Christmas and her funeral was on Christmas last year. Still sucks to think about it even though we weren't close when she was alive.
? spooked at 12:00
Sunday 27 November 2011
So, starving myself this week. Have to lose the weight I gained back. Started purging again. Haven't written in a few days. My Disney movie marathon was fun. I loved singing along to the old songs. Haven't done anything important since then. I've just been rotting at home. I did continue writing my story though. It's quite crap. Nothing else to write about. Bye, I guess.
? spooked at 22:32